Am I changing?
That shouldn't have to be a bad thing.
But I feel quite bad about it.
I don't want to be constantly unsure of myself.
I don't want to constantly leave myself hanging, and feel like there's no ground beneath me for a safe landing.
I am questioning -everything-, even the things I was so sure about before.
That is ridiculous.
I know there has to be a point where I stop.
I don't have to always push myself like this.
I am not ineloquent.
I am not emo.
Why the hell I wonder if I am anyway.
I was not meant to be an angry person.
Because I have much to live for.
I have much to be happy about.
I have much to be sad about even.
And even then, it is fine.
Because I shall allow myself to feel.
I shall allow myself to question.
Without getting to breaking point.
Because some things will never ever change.
Even if most things do.
Even if I should change.
It's okay to be scared.
It's okay to be insecure.
I can feel.
I can question.
I do not have to be in control.
I do not have to nag at myself.
I will allow it to come.
I will let the words come.
I'll let them come out of me.
Instead of holding back.
It's okay to be bored even.
It's okay to be on your own.
It's okay to stand apart from everyone else.
If that's the way it feels sometimes.
It's okay because
I still have some good times left.
Good times are waiting for me.
I can be a million different people
As the song goes.
And the million different people
Will all be me.